Friday, April 1, 2022

I'm still alive


It has been yearsss already since I stopped writing. 4 years later and here I am, still breathing and surviving. But this time I'm trying to be an INFP person with a small heart. Like if I can. Anyway, I'm doing great now Alhamdulillah. Ada plan nak menulis blog lagi tapi belum jumpa masa yang sesuai. That's all for today. Byee

Dida (oh and I finally let new people/new friends call me Dida, she's my ARTer ego)

Saturday, December 22, 2018

I'm back!

Hi! I'm back. But still, I don't have the plan to be active again in blogging. Besides that, I don't really know if I actually do have readers in here. But I love writing so I'm not going to delete it and I'll just keep this blog... I eventually will update something later.

It has been a few weeks since I last deactivate my personal Instagram account. I just don't get the fun vibes anymore. People in there are being so helpless, stalkers are everywhere, careless, lack of common sense, and boring. By lack of common sense, I'm referring to the circle I'm living with now. It's getting toxic, the friendship is getting unreal. Sorry not sorry, it's true. These people are just fine, they are nice actually, but when it comes to backstabbing each other, they are PRO at it. I'm impressed but I'm scared. I'm scared because I will eventually turn to be like them, I'm not up to kill someone verbally or mentally. I have been in that place and I don't like it. The struggle was real! It feels like you're dying, you're suffocating, you can't breath but people can't help you, because they can't feel it, they don't know what's happening to you. When I tried to tell to my friend about what I have been through, she just said "you can't do this and that. You CAN'T BLABLABLA. Can't cannot and you have to husnuzon 24/7 365 days forever and ever until you die". Only if that shit is possible for a person to do, then mental health issues should never be exist. I know it is important to live with good and positive thoughts but ignorance is bliss. So by only saying NO and continue to judge one who having depression, it's not helping you know >.< I'm getting depress somemore, so I just stopped trying to reach them. Anyway, yes I'm talking about myself. I didn't know I was having a severe depression until few months ago I decided to seek for help. I went to the counselling centre at my study place.

I'll continue later... Adios!

p/s: they thought one who is having depression is crazy. But they didn't realize, they are the reason why that one person is having mental health issue. Ignorance is bliss, but ignorant people are silent killers.

Wednesday, July 25, 2018

UTM Accommodation

Gonna update about the type of accommodation available in Universiti Teknologi Malaysia, Skudai.

Stay tuned... :)

Friday, February 9, 2018

Happy New Year!

P/s: it is never too late to wish you guys a Happy New Year :D 
and have a nice day, pals!

Thursday, September 28, 2017

This is not me.


Today I just want to share my daily journey...

In my previous 2 years study, I was living in Kolej Tun Fatimah, KTF, and it is the only female kolej in UTM for undergraduate students. It could be a great place for us and we were free to do anything because there were no or fewer guys around. I love that place (except the office staffs). But last semester, I had to do the online-register for the kolej since I had less merit to stay in KTF. Hmmmmmmmmm...

Anyway, in the online register list, there were several kolej that I can apply for and then I choose to stay in Kolej Tun Hussein Onn, KTHO, instead of Kolej Rahman Putra, KRP. That time, my main reason was, I wanted to stay near with the KKDK's girls. It will be easy for us to stay connected and much more easy for us to do the departmental task together also to hang out sometimes. It sounds like a good plan for me and I will just be fine to stay a bit further from my classmates since I have my own transport to drive to their place. Unfortunately, things didn't go as I planned.

The friendship that I thought will become sweeter, it ends up getting bitter. It was just a small misunderstood at first, then it became worse after some fellas keep pushing my limits and take granted on me. Later on, I turn to be less concern, ego, and I pushed most of them away. Like a quote "I trust nobody, and nobody trusts me - Taylor Swift". I must say, this is not me, I am not that person. But the limits were broken and I am drowning inside.

And finally, I decided to take a step back from KKDK and this gonna be my last session involving in this persatuan. Nevertheless, I have been in this persatuan for almost 2 years. I really want to stay, but I guess this is the best solution for all of us. I am currently in 3rd year now and I should focus more on my study. Besides that, I want to give some spaces and chance for the new session (KKDK 2017/2018) and to the 1st year students to shine bright like a diamond! Hehehehe! By that I mean, I hope new KKDK team will achieve much more improvement in future time. Yup, I am positive about that. Anyway, best of luck to batch of Empire Of KKDK and I will miss every single moment we had spent together. Thank you for coming into my life.

That is all for today. Adios :*