I'm still alive

 Hi,

It has been yearsss already since I stopped writing. 4 years later and here I am, still breathing and surviving. But this time I'm trying to be an INFP person with a small heart. Like if I can. Anyway, I'm doing great now Alhamdulillah. Ada plan nak menulis blog lagi tapi belum jumpa masa yang sesuai. That's all for today. Byee

Dida (oh and I finally let new people/new friends call me Dida, she's my ARTer ego)

I'm back!

Hi! I'm back. But still, I don't have the plan to be active again in blogging. Besides that, I don't really know if I actually do have readers in here. But I love writing so I'm not going to delete it and I'll just keep this blog... I eventually will update something later.

It has been a few weeks since I last deactivate my personal Instagram account. I just don't get the fun vibes anymore. People in there are being so helpless, stalkers are everywhere, careless, lack of common sense, and boring. By lack of common sense, I'm referring to the circle I'm living with now. It's getting toxic, the friendship is getting unreal. Sorry not sorry, it's true. These people are just fine, they are nice actually, but when it comes to backstabbing each other, they are PRO at it. I'm impressed but I'm scared. I'm scared because I will eventually turn to be like them, I'm not up to kill someone verbally or mentally. I have been in that place and I don't like it. The struggle was real! It feels like you're dying, you're suffocating, you can't breath but people can't help you, because they can't feel it, they don't know what's happening to you. When I tried to tell to my friend about what I have been through, she just said "you can't do this and that. You CAN'T BLABLABLA. Can't cannot and you have to husnuzon 24/7 365 days forever and ever until you die". Only if that shit is possible for a person to do, then mental health issues should never be exist. I know it is important to live with good and positive thoughts but ignorance is bliss. So by only saying NO and continue to judge one who having depression, it's not helping you know >.< I'm getting depress somemore, so I just stopped trying to reach them. Anyway, yes I'm talking about myself. I didn't know I was having a severe depression until few months ago I decided to seek for help. I went to the counselling centre at my study place.

I'll continue later... Adios!

p/s: they thought one who is having depression is crazy. But they didn't realize, they are the reason why that one person is having mental health issue. Ignorance is bliss, but ignorant people are silent killers.

UTM Accommodation

Gonna update about the type of accommodation available in Universiti Teknologi Malaysia, Skudai.


Stay tuned... :)

Happy New Year!

P/s: it is never too late to wish you guys a Happy New Year :D 
and have a nice day, pals!

This is not me.

Hi,

Today I just want to share my daily journey...

In my previous 2 years study, I was living in Kolej Tun Fatimah, KTF, and it is the only female kolej in UTM for undergraduate students. It could be a great place for us and we were free to do anything because there were no or fewer guys around. I love that place (except the office staffs). But last semester, I had to do the online-register for the kolej since I had less merit to stay in KTF. Hmmmmmmmmm...

Anyway, in the online register list, there were several kolej that I can apply for and then I choose to stay in Kolej Tun Hussein Onn, KTHO, instead of Kolej Rahman Putra, KRP. That time, my main reason was, I wanted to stay near with the KKDK's girls. It will be easy for us to stay connected and much more easy for us to do the departmental task together also to hang out sometimes. It sounds like a good plan for me and I will just be fine to stay a bit further from my classmates since I have my own transport to drive to their place. Unfortunately, things didn't go as I planned.

The friendship that I thought will become sweeter, it ends up getting bitter. It was just a small misunderstood at first, then it became worse after some fellas keep pushing my limits and take granted on me. Later on, I turn to be less concern, ego, and I pushed most of them away. Like a quote "I trust nobody, and nobody trusts me - Taylor Swift". I must say, this is not me, I am not that person. But the limits were broken and I am drowning inside.

And finally, I decided to take a step back from KKDK and this gonna be my last session involving in this persatuan. Nevertheless, I have been in this persatuan for almost 2 years. I really want to stay, but I guess this is the best solution for all of us. I am currently in 3rd year now and I should focus more on my study. Besides that, I want to give some spaces and chance for the new session (KKDK 2017/2018) and to the 1st year students to shine bright like a diamond! Hehehehe! By that I mean, I hope new KKDK team will achieve much more improvement in future time. Yup, I am positive about that. Anyway, best of luck to batch of Empire Of KKDK and I will miss every single moment we had spent together. Thank you for coming into my life.

That is all for today. Adios :*

Prologue Of KKDK

Assalammualaikum. Hi!

First of all, I would like to say thank you to everyone (the committees and the participants) cuz willing to spend their weekend time to get involved in Prologue Of KKDK. It has been a blast! 

And thanks to my timbalan pengarah, Izzul, cuz he has been really supportive to make this program come to success.

I was the pengarah for Prologue Of KKDK and this is my first-time experience to hold such position. I tried to carry the amanah and trust that has been given to me and Alhamdulillah everything went as planned. It was a great experience. All I can say now, it is not easy to work on something huge without the help from your fellow friends. 

Last but not least, I wish all the best for Kelab Kaunseling Dan Kerjaya UTM in your future time. These 2 years and half of me getting involved in KKDK have taught me a lot. I love all the new experiences and great adventures. It is priceless.

Then what makes KKDK so special between other societies? I am not going to make a comparison between these societies. But personally, I would say the speciality of KKDK itself is how the persatuan manages to grow that rasa sayang dan rasa bertanggungjawab dalam hati dan seterusnya membuatkan kita sendiri rasa untuk terus berkhidmat dalam persatuan ini...

That is all. Thank you again :)

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A post.

Hi,

I am doing fine for now.

Just that, I am staying very far far away from my friends and classmates and it might be difficult for me to catch up with them; doing group assignments or discussions. Hmmm but I will just live my life and work on something better. I will mohon pertukaran kolej kediaman next two weeks because the staff told me that any changes of hostel should be made during that week.

This semester we are going to take for the elective subjects. I am going to take the Operational Research (OR) and the Organizational Behavior. It does sound like a management stuff but it is a Mathematical thing. And I wished I was a management student..................................................................................

Until today, I still wonder why Mathematics that I learn now is very distinct from the Mathematics I had learned before. I was so into the "calculating-Math" since I was a kid. But this new "theoretical-Math" is confusing me to death. And my brain is literally burning from the overthinking and seeking for the answers for these theories also for the wondering situation I had since I knew Calculus Vector.

And some of these people in the class are still behaving like murid-murid darjah 6. Oh, common I can hear you guys. I was entering the class, I came a bit early today because I want to sit in the front row. Then, I heard these small voices at the 2nd row discussing with each other  "depan ni kan japgi A, B duduk.."    "a ah. situ lah"    and I am about to sit dan aku nampak sorang ni buat muka terkejut "... eh.. hm japgi A, B, C duduk situ. Muat kot". HAH MUAT KOT? KAWAN-KAWAN KITA YG LAIN SEBESAR KAPAL TERBANG KE? Later I decided to ignore their small discussion. Masalahnya, ni baru first day kelas kat situ tau. Anak-anak ni dah tak sabar nak main cop-cop tempat dah kenapa? Tak make sense la. Kalau nak cop sangat tempat, aku sampai awalkan? Can I just book that sit for the next 150 days cuz physically, I was in the class first not these A,B,C people, cant I?  I'm not disliking these people neither do they. We are all just fine. But what I want to mention here, these people just lack awareness to jaga perasaan orang lain and less mature kot. Tercalar sikit doe hati ini. Bersemangat dah masuk kelas awal, tetiba baru nak duduk diorang ni sesuka hati je sokseksoksek belakang aku. Ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

New semester.

Assalammualaikum. Hi :)

Finally, semester break ends. Since I got things to settle with the faculty so I was coming back to UTM early than I supposed to. I came back on 5th Sept and that time the Minggu Mesra Mahasiswa (MMM) just started for 2 days.

We started our journey from Nenek's home at 7 am then arrived at JB around 11 am. I asked my father to send me straight to the Kolej Kediaman (hostel) to get the room key first because the office will be closed at noon. We managed to arrive before noon... But then the staff wouldn't allow me to get the room key because I wasn't supposed to come back during MMM. They asked me for an official letter from whoever it is that indicated the reason why I had to come back early. And I didn't have that letter. Then they asked me to give a call to the Pengetua Kolej and ask him whether I can stay or not in the hostel. At the same time, I tried to call a friend of mine (who was coming back early too) to ask her if she can have me to stay at her place. But both of Pengetua and friend didn't pick up my calls till 4:++ pm. I guess these two were too busy to have a 30 sec of emergency conversation with me T^T.

My parents started to worry and I still couldnt get in to my room. They had to leave me before evening because they were rushing to go back to Terengganu. And if you guys ever wonder why my parents still want to send me back to campus, it is simply because they love their pies so much. Last time, Ayah rode Ijie's scooter and Umi was driving her back to UKM. She was at Ampang/Gombak at that time, doing her internship. She told me she can ride by herself but Ayah was so eager to send her. Anyway, I didnt want them to get tired, sacrificed time and energy just to send me to the south of the land~ But they wanted to make sure I safely arrive at the destination. Thank you Umi Ayah. We love you so much too ♥. Later, I tried to talk with the staff again (with a tired yet cute face) and this one Akak just let me to have it. Oh! Alhamdulillah. And I finally a KTHO resident.



I am still tired and I'm going to sleep again right after I finish with these certificates and letters. And if plan A didnt succeed, I still have plenty of plans to work on.

Artwork_1

Feel free to visit my Instagram and check out my artwork. Thanks for your support! :)

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Semesterbreak.

Rantau Petronas, Kemasik, Terengganu.

Still, in a holiday mood and hot and Terengganu receive very minimal amounts of rainfall.

But I love the sea breeze! I really do.

Kem Kaizen.

Greetings everyone!

Today I'm going to share my TOT experience at Kem Kaizen, Pontian. TOT stands for Training Of Trainee and we were invited by Encik Safiudin to join his academy at Kem Kaizen. We went there for 3 days and 2 nights, started on 16 Feb 2017 until 18 Feb 2017. 

On Thursday we arrived at Kem Kaizen around 7:30 pm. Later, we were divided into 2 teams, A and B. Team A (me, Nurmi, Miera, Sydi, and Emon) handled elementary school program and Team B (Syepah, Raihan, Nik, Izul) handled primary school program. On the last day, all of us handled 1 elementary school program together. 

We swam in the pond (ada banyak rumpai, katak, ikan, dan lumpur dimana-mana), jungle tracking during the day and at the night, crawling in the mud, hiking, and so much more to write here. All I can say, it was really a great experience and another great memory was created during TOT at Kem Kaizen. 

Alhamdulillah.

Thank you, everyone, for the experience and support.

PELTAC 2017.

Hi,

Last January, I was involved in an international camp handled by us, The Peltacers of 2017. After almost a year of doing backstage preparation, we finally arrived in the last preparation week, started on 13th January 2017 until 20th January 2017. The big event was going to start on 21st January until 26th January 2017. 

I was the Supreme Council of PELTAC 2017, the secretary, the HOD of Information Technology Department, and I am the facilitator to my awesome and superb Metamorpho group!

I started my journey in PELTAC when I was in the first year (2015). I was selected by the previous very-kind-and-supportive Director Dinesh to continue my journey in PELTAC as the SC. Although I am not very excellent in communicating, yet my creativity and art skill helped me to contribute my idea some more in PELTAC'17.

"I may not be a fast learner, but I am still a learner and I am willing to learn. - NadPeanut"

PELTAC'17 Squad!

Ming Chi and I (the facilitators),
Athaya, Darchu, Esther, Zerry, Fatah, Roy, Nurul Aiman, and Harris.
My humble and beloved people in Metamorpho.

#AlwaysBelieveInYourself
#PELTAC2017

My small cottage.

Assalammualaikum and hi,

Today is the third times I change the furniture placement.
I love my room so much so I want to make this space comfortable as possible... Huhuhu~

Ni masa 1st day sampai UTM... Ayah siap belikan cake chocolate untuk hilangkan kesedihan aku T^T

Ni kali ketiga ubah susun atur 

Tunggukan final touch bilik aku sebab sekarang dalam planning nak beli alas getah yang cantik tu hehehe!

Schoolmate.

Assalammualaikum.. Hi :)

Hari ni teman Nawal jumpa ayah dia kat Masai, masih dalam area JB la huhu. Kami keluar lepas maghrib dan terus cari hotel tempat ayahnya stay. Ayah Nawal fly dari KL ke JB sebab ada meeting ke apa macam tu la. Dalam perjalanan tu kitorang pompang pompang laa untuk pecahkan ice between us two! XD

We were actually never been this close in the previous school. She was in another class and I'm in KRK, even during our upper form we both in different streams. Nawal datang sekolah tu masa kami di tingkatan dua. For a new student, she was quite famous at that time and her mom was our superb English teacher. Mula-mula tak boleh go on sangat dengan Nawal ni sebab dia mcm poyonya~ Tapi lama-lama nampak karekter dia jenis yang hyper pastu cakap banyak (dengan certain people yang dia rasa selesa je la kot ahaha). Sepanjang beberapa tahun sekolah bersama-sama, setakat Hi-Bye bila selisih kat corridor selalu la. Kalau nak lepak atau borak tu jauh sekali! Aku pun dak nerdy dulu, enjoyed my time spending together with LGG (Ira, Tasha, Aina, Mar, Alia, Fatin, Kaklang aka Shakilla) most time. Takpun lepak dalam koop dengan Ira sebab kitorang pengawas hijau (pengawas koperasi dan aku jarang pakai uniform tu sebab orang pernah cakap aku pokok bergerak! Pastu sekarang susah nak cari balik gambar zaman aku jadi pengawas hijau T^T). Jadi untuk tidak meleret, after finished high school, she continued with Diploma and I went to Kmpp. Tamat matrikulasi, aku sambung degree kat UTM... Then one day dia nampak aku tweet fasal #TipsMasukU kot, pastu aku tag #UTMAwesome pastu dia macam excited, rupanya she was accepted to further her study in UTM too. Since that day we continue our Hi-Bye again but this time maybe as friends not acquantainces anymore! Hahahahahahaha... Insha Allah.

P/s: Alhamdulillah for the dinner. Rezeki :) Kitorang dua pun tak tahu ayah dia ada meeting kat Senibong Seafood Village ni.

Legoland, JB.

Yesterday, the girls and I went to Legoland Malaysia. Rented two cars to go there and my driver was Umi Haryantie. I must say she is an excellent manual-driver! Thank you, girls. It was a great experience!

The girls

Ponn ponnnn!!!

Mini Star Wars museum.

I can see my reflection there xD

RIP sembreak.

Hi,

My sem break is over and now I'm going back to UTM . My pointer was not super great but you know a person does not receive a gold medal all the time. I mean, we will not always be on the top forever, right? The choices we make lead up to actual experiences and last time, I decided to take this lazy path. It is not cool to be dumb. I used to be great on this subject before. I'm continuing to do my BSc in Maths because my families, teachers, and friends told me that I have a mathematic brain and maybe I can go further with it... Did I just compliment myself? Hahahaha! Why not :P
The true thing is we see the world differently. We live the world differently. So just don't give up. I am sure I am not a failure. Fail once doesn't mean fail forever. Keep going, get up, stand on your feet, aim, and chase. That's all. Yeah... and more important is, be kind to everyone. Peace :)

Always live your life to the fullest! 

Have a nice day.

Ipoh here we come!

Hi people!

How have you been? I hope you're doing well every day ;) ... So I wanted to share my journey to Perak. I went there with My Nenek, Tok Apak and The Wans.

During my semester break, I decided to stay at kampung to accompany My Nenek and I guess I will stay here until the end of sem break.

The Journey

22nd July - My Nenek and I waited for a bus at the near warung around 8:30 am. At 9 am, a bus finally came and arrived at Bahau 1 hour later. At Bahau, we took another bus to Seremban to go to Wan Lang's house at Ampangan. Later we arrived at Ampangan. After Asar, Tok Apak and his wife fetched us to continue our journey to Perak...

Not sure at what time we arrived at the homestay but the house was super comfortable and I'm the only cucu with them that time. That night, I slept together with My Nenek and Wan Lang. These 2 were so cute when they discussing things together. They talked a lot. I wonder if they'd ever get tired or thirsty.

23rd - We went to Mydin to find some scarfs and blouses,

My Nenek ♥ 

Homestay in Ipoh.

That's all for now. Good night.

Semester Break.

Hi!

So I'd finished my last Programming paper on last Wednesday. But I am officially started my holiday on Friday (my bus ticket on 17th June). 

I supposed to go back to Kuala Lumpur, but then after I arrived TBS at 12 noon, then there was a problem so I just decided to go back to kampung Gemas. I was traveling for a day that day! 7 am from UTM to Larkin, then I managed to change my ticket time from 11 am to 8 am, arrived TBS around 11:45 am, the only 2 stations that sell train ticket to Gemas are KL Sentral and Serdang, so at 12 pm I bought a ticket to Serdang, but... (missed a train to Gemas at 1:30 pm)... So I have to wait until 6:00 pm for the next train T_T

At 9:30 pm, I reached Gemas. Later Maksu and Paksu fetched me from the train station.
Anyway, it wasn't a bad day actually. My journey from morning until evening, I met  so many kinds of people, from different backgrounds, different ages.  We shared our stories, getting know each other and iftar together on the train. It was a blast.

Hello.

Hi people!
Feel free to visit and follow and support my art Instagram (instagram.com/Nadir.arts).
That's all. Thank you.
Have a nice day :)

Throwback loves.

✿ Diana and I ✿

✿Hanani and I ✿

✿ Amalia ✿

♡ Silang Budaya preparation ♡♡

☁ DH // DF // DK girls! 

☁ ☁ Bayan Lepas Airport  ☁ ☁

✿✿✿✿✿✿✿ My favorite girls ✿✿✿✿✿✿✿

       A true friendship doesn't need daily conversation or being together all the time. It's about how we appreciate their present in our life and how we're longing for their absence. As long as the relationship lives in the heart, people you called friends never far apart.

      We may come from different backgrounds, different modules, and practicums, different personalities, different lifestyles. But we never make a differentiation between friends. Hani and I are the loud ones among us, while Diana kind of feminine and soft girl, and Amalina is the purest, humble, and a very nice person I've ever met. We may not always be sticking together, we friended with everyone. Then at night, we studied together till late morning. Amalina always accompanies me studying.
   
      There's a time when we got issues between us, we'll think twice before we badmouthing our friends to others. We felt like a terrible person if we do so.

      They involved in my life a lot. I am a learner and I am learning from the surrounding. Treat people as how as we want them to treat us. If they gave you sweet, then reply them with sweets. If they give you joyful, join with them (maceh my present kawan-kawan). But how if they show the other things?

I'm missing my girlfriends so much.